Well, I am unsure at this moment how this is going to go. What am I starting here? I’ll tell you a bit about myself and what’s going on. I’m an 18 year-old Canadian girl, currently at McMaster University studying first year Engineering. It’s a little strange, isn’t it? Most engineers hate english and writing and anything other than numbers and complicated formulas and reactions and energy… but I’m a bit different from the rest. Or at least I’d like to think so.
The truth is, I have so many things that I am interested in that I didn’t know where to begin. So I began with the toughest university program. The one that practically guarantees me a well-paying job and allows me to feel extremely rewarded when I get a mark of anything over a 70%. The one that was definitely influenced upon me by my now 22 year old brother, also a McMaster engineer, but in his fourth year.
Anyways, without telling my entire life story I will get to the point. The point is that I am very stressed. But in a way that I don’t actually feel that feeling of panic and constant worry… perhaps it is almost the opposite. I just feel calm. I don’t really feel overly happy in my program, maybe because of constant studying and a never-ending workload, or because I left behind the best group of friends from high school and just can’t manage to meet many people living up to them, or maybe because there’s just something else missing.
A hobby. Something to look forward to once classes are finished for the day. I have bursts of the most positive energy and optimism, ideas and inspiration and the desire to actually do something at the end of the day, rather than just sitting in my dorm room, worthlessly on the internet or otherwise doing work during any ounce of time I’m not spending in class. And I want to share this energy. It may be a big dream, but I want to impact someone’s life. And it doesn’t matter the size of the impact, hell, if anyone reads this at all I will be overjoyed.
I suppose I would just like to think that even though I am only an eighteen year-old student, that what I have learned in my life thus far can somehow help someone else in their own life.
Yes, I did use the title of nearly every television series’ first episode for my first post. Let my series begin.
exohcaroline 